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Three Secrets to a Successful Relationship

Many gay men wrongly assume that sexual attraction means relationship (material).

What is not understood is how to create wonderful relationships.

Often times those of us who have created something wonderful go underground.

We make it difficult to provide tangible, visible proof of what two men who are in love the right way can create. Most of us not only don't know how to date but also bring these simplistic types of interaction to our attempts to design relationships.

When we are limited to less than stellar relationship resources, we can only recreate more of what doesn't work.

Spending damn near three decades and unmentionable failures trying to make love work, there are three things that repeatedly show up when successful relationships are the topic.

Incidentally, these are the same three things that can be utilized in developing incredible friendships.

For a very long time, it was a goal of mine to be in a loving relationship that would assuage all past mishaps.

While I had no idea how to do this, it never was clear until a friend pointed it out, that nothing substantial could be created without a similar /identical set of values.

Like many of my misguided brothers, my assumption was sexual attraction equals relationship (see the wonderful Bethany Marshall for a clearer understanding of the limited thinking this provides). When these colossal flops presented themselves one time too many, my focus became finding a man with similar values.

Often times you can ask a person directly what they find important and although many either don't know or feign ignorance, simply watching a potential paramour will yield some honest and clear indicators.

My brilliant acting coach Colette Duvall always taught us that the subconscious always reads.

Another way to view this philosophy : watch what a person gives their time and attention to.

If your date claims exclusivity but is spending a whole lot of time at the bathhouse, it is time to rethink the relationship if your goal is monogamy.

If you are interested in saving money and the new paramour finds ways to not only refuse to look for work but finds ways to spend the agreed upon mutual savings, he is not interested in honoring you or your finances.

After agreeing to support your decision to attend school, does the "potential" mate find ways to create chaos when you should be preparing for a major exam ?

If so, take a look at your values and determine if this is the man for you.

You can't really get anyone to change their values or necessarily adopt yours.

In the same fashion, you've both shared the desire to protect the relationship and the home you share and as a result neither of you invite psychos into your home for any reason this is also a shared value.

If the term "values" seems to airy fairy or clinical think : what does this person find important and what do I find important ? If there is a match differences can and should be examined and worked through.

Do you know the values of your latest love interest ? Do you have an agreed upon definition of monogamy ? Open relationship ? The way you spend your time ?

Here are few wonderful insights from the aforementioned Dr. Bethany Marshall which should be memorized when we are attempting to fall in love and want to desperately build a lasting successful relationship.

Healthy relationships are founded on mutuality (both of you are equally invested in the relationship), honesty(you never walk away from a conversation feeling confused) and generativity (each conversation generates a new experience, a new understanding and a new way of being with each other).

If these factors are there, then consider falling in love !


How to Eliminate the Good/Bad Parent Hoax

Most of my young life, I dreamt of a large family with many children screaming, playfully terrorizing one another and basically providing loads of love and energy in a semi large contained space.

There were only two problems : I am gay and I could not find another suitable individual who had done the emotional and psychological work that would allow us to co-parent from a position of love and guidance and not neediness.

The more I longed for young ones and fought to become and stay emotionally healthy, the fewer men I encountered who were healthy enough to raise or consider guiding young people.

I have always loved and valued children.

My commitment to children is also a commitment to community.

As a young boy, I had the distinct and memorable experience of being raised in many intergenerational situations.

Whether it was an uncle teaching us the latest dance steps or an aunt sneaking us into Richard Pryor's concert film and performing Macbeth in the living room, we had many and varied influences who all influenced and loved us in very different ways.

When my parents could not tolerate my daydreams and basement, standing room only performances, my sister and I would head down the street to an always eager audience (our grandparents).

When raising children certain realities will present themselves.

At some point, adults lose their patience. They will say or do something stupid or insensitive.

Bad parenting and making a bad choice are not one in the same.

Many parents, including my own, are obsessively concerned with being perceived as a good or bad parent.

The parenting gestapo is not concerned with supporting parents and communities dedicated to rearing children.

When parents accept the good/bad parent title, they've lost the parenting battle and have limited their ability to think and make amends.

We all get seduced into the lies that say everyone is more capable, organized and loving than we are.

When the silent voice of defeat constantly whispers we are losers and have no business raising children, many of us react by criticizing, controlling and frantically attempting to dominate every aspect of our children's young lives.

We no longer do what's best for our children.

We do what's best for us and hope that this lack of thought and future planning will not cause any severe and psychological upset.

The trick to creating new parenting strategies is not focusing on whether a parent is good or bad.

Using our community as a source of support, tough love and inumerable ways to interact with young people, we are able to create new strategies for loving and guiding our young people and give up the concept of good/bad parenting.


Are You Relying on Victoria’s Secret or Viagra to Save Your Relationship?

When couples want to improve their relationships, the concept of communication along with fair fighting gets dusted off and revisited.

If that fails to create the desired results, we are then told to take on the other's view point; walk a mile or two in someone else's loafers.

While these things may get the party started they don't sustain and they are only part of the equation.

We often get communication very confused.

When someone says that another person doesn't communicate, it usually means a person is not responding a particular way or an expectation has gone unmet.

Behavior is communication.

When whining, coercion, bullying and ultimatum giving cease to work, we throw our hands to the heavens and angrily start creating an exit strategy.

What if the reasons we move our relationship forward have nothing to do with all of the Cosmo tips, eye contact, seeking to understand before being understood and a host of other tips that only sell magazines but provide no hope or lasting solutions.

What if keeping your primary intimate relationship has nothing to do with new sexual positions, roses, candlelight or romantic music.

The solution to boredom and deepening relationships is trust and without accountability there is no trust.

We all make agreements in every relationship.

When we want to create better relationships, we must make better agreements.

Nothing improves the communication and intimacy, trust and accountability like facing a challenge together and becoming victorious in the process.

I refer to this concept as a shared victory.

Shared victory is the systematic and unrelenting pursuit of a goal that all involved parties find exciting and worthwhile.

My life partner and I are very different people.

Race, age, upbringing, and education have greatly influenced how we see things, problem solve and make decisions.

While we have yet to face a challenge that can't be handled and won over, I know that life and the universe will periodically give you a swift kick in the groceries just so you know you're alive and should stay awake.

We have made decisions regarding money, housing and how to make sure that the other is taken care of when the time comes for one of us to kick the bucket.

We have had and continue to create and implement plans that allow for "shared victories". This is the key to having a highly sensual and powerful relationship.

When trouble or conflict come knocking, we collectively gather our strengths and turn towards each other with a heartfelt: What are we gonna do ?

The wise partnership will allow each party to handle what they do best.

In John Maxwell's How Successful People Think, he points out that most people are either strategic or intuitive.

My husband is strategic.

Many times planning something as much as three to four weeks out.

I am intuitive.

I work towards things with the end in mind but am very flexible on how I get there.

Recently, we both started wearing glasses and for very different reasons.

I cannot see far away and he cannot see things close up.

We have a system that works.

I write out the checks and he drives.

Shared Victories are also very sexy because according to Esther Perel in Mating in Captivity, we are often the most turned on when we see the sight of our beloved doing what they do best and are born to do with passion.

Ditch the Viagra,sexy outfits and role play and find something (a common goal) that excites you both and go after it like a couple of beasts.

Trust me it will be far more rewarding than sitting around date night discussing the shit you could discuss at home without wasting gas or looking for a parking spot.

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Lee Daniels, James Baldwin and Why It Isn’t Impossible for Black Men to Come Out

Lee Daniels, Oprah and their very entertaining movie (The Butler) are having quite a moment.

It always amazes me that the very large and in many ways predictable white power structure makes a decision to "anoint" certain people authorities and makes the decision to silence others.

As a result of Mr. Daniels and Ms. Winfrey's second pairing and obvious grab for the Oscar, it seemed a great time to allow Daniels to not only publicly "come out" but also to spew his brilliance regarding why a "majority" of black gay/bi men stay in the closet.

While I am thrilled that he has publicly acknowledged his sexuality which can only enhance and embolden his work, this business about not "coming out" and allowing himself to be "silenced" so that he could work is troubling and weak.

Many times I have been offered the chance to play the game: Switch pronouns, refer to folks as buddies, gain advice on how to handle love and a lack of communication between myself and the man I was currently dating.

All of the game playing was created by denying who I was and the real nature of my complicated and highly annoying "relationships" with other men.

After growing a pair and hitting my mid 20's, I knew it was time for something else and some very different ways of being.

I started doing my homework and looking for some models of unadulterated courage.

I found one who kicked me in the gut and gave me permission to be my full and present self.

James Baldwin has inspired me for more than twenty years.

Mr. Baldwin was speaking to the "establishment" and creating from a place of honesty and fearlessness fifty years ago. He wrote of gay love, longing and anguish while simultaneously combining it with the "black struggle". Nobody (the black intelligentsia, the government or other artists) could silence him.

When I hear Mr. Daniels describe the struggle of wanting to work, I hear the need to belong.

I hear the need for acceptance and permission to create that only comes, or so we are told, if we don't allow ourselves to be placed in certain boxes.

When I was closeted, I couldn't create shit.

All of my genius and talent was devoted to keeping up a facade.

There was no time or need to develop elaborate, layered characters (via my acting and writing) when my existence was one crowd-pleasing performance after another.

Once I ingested Baldwin's brilliance and boldness and made it my own, amazing things began to happen.

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Why Homelessness Matters and What Can Be Done to Fix It

When you are homeless nothing else matters.

When you don't have solid footing, no matter your level of intelligence or education, everything is seen through the prism of: I don't matter because I have no control or input regarding my most basic of necessities.

I have been there: living in hotels with lunatic boyfriends, sleeping on the floor of a friend's home, trying to determine the lesser of two evils living with my family back in the Midwest or with friends knowing that there was no guarantee that things would turn around.

While there are folks that undoubtedly abuse the system and figure out all types of ways to keep themselves in the space of: Gimmee, can I have, let me borrow, there are those who legitimately want to do better and improve their lives.

Everyone at some point needs some type of assistance.

At different times in our lives, we all need someone who encourages us through a kind word, some insightful problem solving or simply a new approach to a hauntingly familiar problem seen through a fresh set of eyes.

To fix the problem of homelessness, we can start by reappropriating funds.

We can offer financial and housing assistance.

We can offer support while people increase their critical thinking skills which can lead to an increase in self esteem.

We can become our brother's keeper.

We can take on the suffering of others as our own and work to alleviate it.

Alleviate not belittle or offer patronizing statements couched in :Let me show you how to live because you are too stupid to figure it out.

If I jump in and offer suggestions without consulting and attempting to understand what is needed by the people in the most need and the most affected, I also run the risk of augmenting and adding to the problem.

This helps no one.

I have often fantasized about a community wherein people pool resources.

A community wherein diverse groups of folk work together and joyfully move everyone's life forward.

What would this look like?

For one thing, it would involve everyone taking a course in loving well and then a class in critical thinking.

To make this possible one day a week would be devoted to teaching and exploring the concept of love.

The love courses could be taught one day a week and could cover things such as how to treat folks we perceive as different?

We could produce images that involve people clearly learning and being in communion with one another.

We all learn how to behave and dream based on the steady images we allow ourselves to be fed.

We teach intolerance, nonthinking and domination via mass media.

Why not use the same tools to teach love and critical thought?

How do we interact with people we ordinarily have no contact with or seldom find reasons to engage in meaningful conversations?

If the decision is to eradicate homelessness and make everyone self sufficient, we have to examine the reasons why this problem exists.

When I lived in Japan in the mid 90's, homelessness was nonexistent.

Part of my job while living there was teaching people skills they needed to become financially secure and socially productive and independent. It was assumed that everyone had something to offer and would offer it if given the correct way to do this, i.e. training and time to incorporate a new skill set.

This would work here in the States provided that housing and food prices be made lower via community gardens and groups of individuals owning something (their place of residence in joint tenancy).

Unlike a coop board which is stupid and pointless (If I hear about one more moron being worked up because a wire is showing or someone made a visible improvement which required a discussion I will lose my mind), I would rather see a group of folk own a building outright and then deciding how they want it to look and who would be in charge of making improvements and or enhancing the overall look of the building.

People who have lived in their cars have a different understanding of what is important and what needs to be done to accomplish the most with the least.

Many times, I have attacked a problem with the help and insight of someone who had either already dealt with whatever was causing me the blues or was unaffected by the same issue and therefore provided me with some fresh insight and opinions.

This allowed me to fix the problem and then move on to the next one.

If my perception that a social problem is someone else's to solve, I have abdicated responsibility for lending a hand to improve the lives of others.

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Three Ways To Be Courageous in 2016

Ten years ago, I wrote and performed a ballsy, brave, one man show:Knucklebones.

My brave instructor, Gretchen Cryer, had given me permission to write about the scary dark places we all possess.

Talking about male rape, addiction, abandonment, betrayal, teen homosexual longing for love, hurt and redemption, there was no way to unflinchingly explore and create insightful, gutsy analysis without speaking in a multitude of voices and tenses.

As I approach the new year and hurdle towards my fifties, I find myself asking :what happened to that emotionally brave theater soldier?

It is time to stop asking permission and struggling to explain and move into taking charge by tapping into those reservoirs of courage, power, initiative and creativity.

I will create a great year by taking on the following three tasks. Creating as if I don't give a shit and have nothing to lose; welcoming opportunities to be honest and confrontational when it is needed and finally, understanding that there might be a better way of doing things that I have yet to discover.

I want to encourage people to be brave in 2016 and beyond. My act of bravery for the year-publishing my anthology, Ain't I A Man and a collection of Sci Fi Short stories.

While creating sci fi may sound like a blast to create, it may require more than one confrontation.

My students often feel that confrontation is a bad thing.

They feel that actively seeking out and highlighting differences is negative and to be avoided. When I point out that an honest discussion (seen as confrontation) can and often does lead to growth and a severe creative outburst, they seem confused.

We are often taught to avoid honest and passionate discourse and dissent for fear that we will upset someone and eliminate a friendship.

Being bold in 2016 means I must develop a spirit that will allow me to be an outsider, a person who goes against the grain and doesn't die a slow death as a result.

Being honest with myself also means confronting my fears surrounding being misunderstood or put "into a box" to make others comfortable. When I allow others to define me, I become angry and feel the need to disengage and cease creating from a position of boldness and self definition.

A healthy confrontation will mean nothing if my ego and love of being right undermines the process of change that could occur.

Most of us want change if and when we have instituted it.

In order to have a big bold life, it is imperative that we welcome change and don't freak out when it appears.

Finding people we can trust who also are committed to "doing it differently" is required if change is to be welcomed and not shunned. It usually means widening your social circle and seeking out folks who are also yearning for something bolder.

People who want big, bold lives are not afraid to think and look at things via a very different lens.

Most people will never get it.

It is not our job to cajole, teach and manipulate those around us who are content with the way things are and have no use for change and the fear it engenders.

Look to folks who are already on the path to developing change and ushering in a new way of thinking and behaving.

It is never to late to take on change and improvement.

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The Number 1 Reason Relationships Fail (And What to Do About It)

Most of us lie all the time.

My friends and acquaintances who were brought up outside of the United States have a very different approach to love, relationships and friendships.

It is their approach to communicating and commitment that I model when examining and making attempts to deepen and enrich my interactions with others.

While they are not perfect nor without fault regarding some of their choices, there is an understanding of what a friendship looks like and what it entails.

I wrote an essay recently with the title: When Friends Attack.

I wanted to have a look at our collective inability to tell the truth to friends and the problems this causes.

When I was in my twenties, it was important that I know and socialize with as many people as possible.

It was not uncommon for me to spend most of the night dancing away in a club and then meet the same folks for a meal a few hours later.

Nor was it uncommon to twirl the evening away then met a different click of folks a few hours later who had nothing to do with the previous night's shenanigans.

It wasn't so much about living a double life.

It was more about coloring the truth a number of varying shades depending on my present company.

I had a need for unmitigated wiggling and six hours stretches of time reading in my favorite bookstores.

I was not willing to give up any of my worlds and enjoyed darting in and out of all of them often deriving a sense of power from being the conduit to people who ordinarily would have never met.

What I refused to do was tell the truth about what I wanted or required at any given moment.

My understanding of friendships for a very long time was warped and limited.

There was no speaking up unless you were pissed off then things that were said could cause irreparable damage.

Until I turned twenty five, it never occurred to me that a good course of honesty is what all relationships need.

Truth telling, based on my experience, was a weapon used to crush the enemy, get the upper hand and shut down conversation.

This flawed thinking kept me around people I didn't like or respect and allowed me to simply plod along in my life with no serious ride or die commitment to anything.

Truth telling in friendships and human interaction of any kind often has unpredictable results.

When a friend gets brutally honest about a feeling and refuses to remain silent, it is uncomfortable and scary.

Will the relationship end?

Will there be a reassignment of friendship duties?

A confrontation basically means:I'm right;you're wrong.

There is one result that you can usually count on:somebody is gonna get mad.

This is the usual response along with a healthy dose of denial and justification and a dollop of blame just to keep it interesting.

As a result of so much of the shaming that goes along with being honest is it any wonder that people freak out when there is an opportunity to be honest thereby deepening the bond with another?

We are taught that being honest is cute for young children and downright entertaining and well earned by older folks.

Allowing this myth oriented and limited thinking to guide our interactions keeps us all afraid to speak or even think honestly.

If we follow this philosophy, we limit the types of powerful relationships we can create.

We learn to settle.

We learn to manipulate, withhold and lace each interaction with subterfuge and veiled, purposely misleading opinions and insights.

Truth telling in relationships is not easy and will cost you some relationships.

I am often amused when people allow you to regale them with your brilliance and insight regarding the world's problems then wince when you honestly mention your shortcomings and places where you have made mistakes.

When people have told me that I am being rude or brash or have upset them as a result of pointing out what is or is not working, I think of the times when I am being honest about a shortcoming of my own which no one minds hearing.

When we boldly move out of secret keeping and emotional dishonesty, we will upset more than a few of our so called "friends".

True friends require from themselves and whomever they are in relationship with to fully "show up".

Truth telling in our most intimate relations forces us to determine the type of communication we allow and then offers us the opportunity to change it or simply wallow and say this is enough for me.

When I declared that my club hopping days were over, folks got mad.

When I announced I was leaving Detroit, folks got mad.

When I moved to Japan and then New York and then to California, those who were acquaintances shut me out.

Those who had built honest relationships with me encouraged my guts and commitment to personal growth.

They knew our friendship could grow not diminish.

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My Year of Living Dangerously by Taking Full Responsibility for Everything

Yesterday, I made a mistake at work and totally forgot to acquire an agreed upon resource for one of my wonderful students.

Work relationships, like all relationships that you decide to invest in emotionally, give you the opportunity to address familial and chronic distresses and "not good enoughs".

We can decide to speak up or remain quiet and hopefully exit a situation unscathed and unnoticed.

I will apologize for the forgotten agreement.

After the apology, I will move on and highlight to myself all the good that I have provided for this student and the sixty others I have sworn to support and encourage.

2016 will be my year of taking responsibility. I will not blame, whine or point fingers.

I will not look for things to fear nor someone to blame.

I will make sure that I have all the information I need to make a great decision, then make one and deal with the consequences.

My year of taking full responsibility means I will not agree to things I have no desire to partake in nor agree to things I am uneasy about simply to spare the feelings of another.

On New Year's Eve, there was an opportunity to allow someone to defile my home or speak up and stop it.

I chose to speak up.

Knowing that I have he right to speak up despite how anyone feels is a great undertaking and one hell of a drug.

My year of full responsibility is multi-faceted.

Primarily, I am committed to three things: courage, curiosity and stellar communication.

Recently I began living from courage and urgency and my life exploded in many ways.

I bought my first home.

I tore into my day job like the beast that I am and started handling the financial aspect of my newly married status like a pro.

There is no way to take full responsibility without being courageous.

When I have decided that cowardice was a wiser(easier) choice, I felt like shit.

There is nothing worse than regret.

Choosing inaction makes you feel like a coward.

As a bright Seventeen-year-old, I dreamt of an education and passionate learning environment that was Columbia University.

When no one supported this life vision, I simply did what was expected and justified the decision constantly.

Attending an all black, small, liberal arts institution in the South in the 80's as a gay man was one hell of a decision that brought all kinds of oppressive and vile shit into my life.

Between the homophobia, class issues and constant fear of being outed, there also was the issue of not being challenged to look at things critically.

When you are being indoctrinated into the black, heterosexual, bourgeoisie middle class, there really is no time for taking responsibility outside of any arena that will not secure or improve your social standing in the aforementioned arena.

What could my life have been like had I taken full responsibility for my sexuality (coming out), risked being shunned and figured out how to make it financially without the assistance of people more frightened by life than I was and more committed to the status quo ?

The deadliest thing you can ever do is allow people to make life decisions for you or have any say in what you need or should be doing.

Rather than sitting around indulging in pre-determined life assignments, it is more dangerous to tear out and believe that you will figure shit out and self adjust.

bell hooks in her latest books on education encourages us all to become lifelong self-directed learners.

In this process danger is always afoot. Danger of not knowing. Danger of looking like a fool. Danger of having to continue despite brutal and real obstacles.

Real danger is never challenging yourself or finding out how far you can go in your career, in your relationships, in your life.

As you age, being dangerous is both inevitable and highly avoidable.

Most of us are already dead and just haven't crawled into our graves yet.

Take full responsibility and watch miracles unfold.

It is never too late to take on life and challenge and crush your fears.

Contact me and let me know how your danger looks and how you've kicked it in the junk.

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One More Thing to Handle to Make Sure Your Life Doesn’t Suck

While every interaction is a type of communication, I am learning to be direct, deliberate and clear when I speak.

In my day job, it is not uncommon to speak with forty different people during an eight hour workday.

Each person doesn't hear what I say they screen what I say through their personal history and life experiences.

When we choose honest and clear communication, we increase our chances of making personal and professional improvements.

When we are determined to create wonderful lives and kick some serious butt in 2016, we do not allow confusion to remain.

We share, experience and demand clarity at each gathering and interaction.

We can always choose to stop communication, think about what's has been said and ask for things to be repeated.

Most of don't communicate well because we have not made this a priority nor have we, en masse, mastered the fine art of truly, deeply listening to one another.

We wait for the other person to shut up or their voice to trail off so that we can jump in to correct, offer suggestions or recant a similar experience of our own.

We look for inconsistencies or lies and play detective.

Be a true ally.

Try listening with your heart and not a mind that has no use for fresh, innovative perspectives.

If you're making a decision while I'm talking, you ain't listening.

At my day job, I am constantly tasked with heart listening.

Heart listening means I am not sending emails, texting or otherwise engaged no matter how busy I am or what needs to be done.

Here's a solution:

For the next week, put on a great piece of music that you've heard a bazillion times and listen with a different set of ears (heart listen).

I tried this once with Stevie Wonder's Talking Book and heard some things I had never heard before and was brought to tears.

I now proclaim this the year of heart listening and incredible change.

When we really listen, we will be shocked at what we can learn and how similar we are.

Rather than listening to judge, listen to love. Increase your compassion and dare to listen without distractions and agendas.

When I was jazz/blues singer, my teacher was constantly ranting about "opening our ears" and allowing this experience to take hold of us and change us.

I suggest you do the same.

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Three Things to Handle in 2016 to Make Sure Your Life Doesn’t Suck

Most of us make resolutions drunk on champagne and the belief that with hope as our guide, we can make the impossible possible.


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